Saturday, February 23, 2008

In Memoriam



Maybe this is uncalled for, but I felt the urge to write something about the missing year.
2007 left me without words...dumbstruck.

a no na da da

A whirlwind of thoughts, feelings, actions (non-actions), reactions (non-reactions)...dragged with it the verbs (to be, to want, to stay, to long for...to blah...).

The deal is that I did not send out a single word (thought, feeling, cry) through this blog in all of 2007, but the signs remain...they mark my body, my soul, my spirit...

This year comes with many more words...
and much less fear.

El comienzo despues del final despues del comienzo despues del final...

Monday, February 18, 2008

"Cuara"

Hace casi un mes me encontre con la peseta...me di una obra de teatro excelente ("Machos"), me comi un flan ma' bueno y me pase el dia escuchando esta cancion...que aun esta en mi cabeza...a las 3:05 de la mañana..."what's going on?!"

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means (yeah, whatever that means...)
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
ooh, ooh ooh
and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination...

(4 Non-Blondes - "What's going on?")

Saturday, January 26, 2008

en (eterno) Agradecimiento...

"Kind & Generous" (lovely Natalie Merchant)

You've been so kind and generous
I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
For your selflessness, my admiration
And for everything you've done

You know I'm bound...
I'm bound to thank you for it

You've been so kind and generous
I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
And I never could have come this far without you
So for everything you've done

You know I'm bound...
I'm bound to thank you for it

I want to thank you
For so many gifts
You gave with love and tenderness
I want to thank you

I want to thank you
For your generosity
The love and the honesty
That you gave me

I want to thank you
Show my gratitude
My love and my respect for you
I want to thank you

I (really) want to...

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
...

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

7

hoy los copos de nieve vienen hacia mi como pequeñisimas luciernagas eternamente iluminadas...brilla la escarcha entre los automoviles...entre mi cabello y mis pestañas...hoy me encuentro el autobus de la escuela al salir del parqueo por el cual corto camino...y cambia mis planes...todos mis planes...y asi...ya.

hoy recuerdo que me gusta escribir (y leer) (poesia salvaje)...tambien.

hi, it's me...
and...
you're not a champagne bottle...
will you let me in?

Monday, January 14, 2008

Shift

un transito...
just a stepping stone
on your way...
not my own...
that's good enough.

so time is non-linear?
i'm here...
but i've been long gone.

directions:
open package
warm-up
enjoy!

=)

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Soul of the Phoenix...

"When there's nothing left to burn, you've got to set yourself on fire"...

I've come accross too many break-up songs in the last couple of months. I must say I have a nostalgic disposition. I like sad songs that make you smile in between tears, or viceversa. I figure that's what life is...

Ex-Lover is Dead (Stars)

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes, I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to say

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...

Monday, December 04, 2006

and so it does...

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life:
it goes on."

Robert Frost