Saturday, February 23, 2008

In Memoriam



Maybe this is uncalled for, but I felt the urge to write something about the missing year.
2007 left me without words...dumbstruck.

a no na da da

A whirlwind of thoughts, feelings, actions (non-actions), reactions (non-reactions)...dragged with it the verbs (to be, to want, to stay, to long for...to blah...).

The deal is that I did not send out a single word (thought, feeling, cry) through this blog in all of 2007, but the signs remain...they mark my body, my soul, my spirit...

This year comes with many more words...
and much less fear.

El comienzo despues del final despues del comienzo despues del final...

Monday, February 18, 2008

"Cuara"

Hace casi un mes me encontre con la peseta...me di una obra de teatro excelente ("Machos"), me comi un flan ma' bueno y me pase el dia escuchando esta cancion...que aun esta en mi cabeza...a las 3:05 de la maƱana..."what's going on?!"

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means (yeah, whatever that means...)
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
ooh, ooh ooh
and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What's going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?
Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination...

(4 Non-Blondes - "What's going on?")